#yeah tldr i was innately v feminine as a child and no one allowed me to express it | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

ballerinafigurine · 2 years ago

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i love being more than 10kg away from being overweight (im the most average person u can think of) and having to listen to my mother and grandmother talk about how im too fat for dance and not built for it

#personal #like. i didnt even view myself as a person until i started dancing #i was a little chubby as a kid and ig that prevented my mom from putting me in ballet or rhythmic gymnastics #but still i was a normal weight #i was only overweight for a short period of time in hs and even that was maybe 1kg #but like being brought up and not taught anything feminine hurt me as a child i did not know how to cook or change my sheets #hell i had to fight both of them to be allowed this stuff #and i wasnt even allowed to shower or clip my nails #i only got showered every other day #my mom never got me clothes i liked and i had to stick to colors i hated #i rly miss my ed in these times if i were really skinny i wouldnt have to tolerate this #but i have to eat to recover and its frustrating #shout out to my gf for making the loveliest meals ever #yeah tldr i was innately v feminine as a child and no one allowed me to express it #and now my most important expression of it was snatched away

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